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The Pagan online recovery group eventually dissolved....and I considered attending AA meetings again....as I truly feel the need to stay connected to others in recovery. I just couldn't do it...as with Wicca, I had outgrown AA and it's philosophy......even though I value greatly the start in recovery it afforded me. I decided to try an online search for Satanic recovery groups. All I could find were discussion forums which showed posts written by Satanists arguing about the validity of addiction. Nothing but heated arguments and unsupported opinions.........useless. ( Satanists are not the only humans who don't understand what addiction is). I did find Pagan recovery groups on Facebook....and joined a couple of those. I found them helpful, but selfishness and ego were assigned the title of 'dark'. I grew tired of the predominant 'love and light' view and needed something they just couldn't offer. I had 'a moment of clarity' as Alcoholics who get sober call it.....I was truly inspired by Satan to form a Satanic recovery group of my own. (Take that statement however you wish..I consider myself Agnostic... and seeing Him as a deity, being, force, power, symbol, etc., all make sense to me). The group was formed on February 6th, 2017....began with one member, and now has well over 500 members. I couldn't find my connection to others in recovery who are like-minded.....so I had to make one. I am grateful for my sobriety....and, although I've tried, I can't do it alone.
Hi, my name is David and I'm an alcoholic. I made that statement almost 365 days a year for six years. I, initially, got sober through AA. I worked the 12 steps with an Atheist sponsor and sponsored new people as well. I was practicing Wicca at that time, belonged to a Wiccan 'church', and acted as High Priest on occasion.
Once I moved from Philadelphia to a small town and stopped going to meetings.....I relapsed. I believed it was because I stopped going to meetings.....which is and isn't true. What is true is that I dropped my only connection to recovering folks.......which I believe, even still, is crucial to maintaining my sobriety.
I found a Pagan online recovery group to join......and got sober again. During that period I was feeling that I had outgrown Wicca and started searching for something new. Eventually, I picked up a copy of The Satanic Bible by LaVey......which began my exploration of the Left Hand Path. I soon 'converted' to Satanism.....which I found invigorating and it strengthened my recovery even more.
In a lot of ways...recovery is recovery, but I do approach recovery (and many aspects of my life) differently, in some ways, since adopting a Left Hand Path perspective. The greatest examples that come to mind are ideas about selfishness and ego. Selfishness is viewed as detrimental to recovery according to the 12 step philosophy....I view it as necessary. If you don't take care your self and your true needs........you can't be of any use to anyone else. Ego is thought of as 'evil' and needs to be destroyed according to AA. I truly believe that having a strong healthy ego is not only wise, but also necessary for survival.
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I did AA successfully for 6 years.( no one ever hugged me-I guess that's NA).......worked the steps with an Atheist sponsor......it's what I needed to get clean and sober in the beginning......and it helped me a lot. I met a lot of assholes in AA, but even more 'cool' people. Prayers and shit.........sometimes I would join hands with the group..but not speak the prayer.......sometimes I would say 'gods' instead of God, etc ( whatever felt right personally). The important thing for me was to not just run off and leave the group......sometimes the most helpful part of the meeting..is helping clean up and chatting more casually with folks........that helped my sobriety A LOT. I did IOP also.......hated it, but my attitude was shit at that time.....try to make it work for you....it's for your benefit -it's not a punishment. I have no regrets...the addictions and the recovery are part of my 'story'......I do recovery mostly online now- ( modern psychology,the 12 steps, Buddhism, TSB and online support groups are my personal tools) there are so many resources........it's great.......but early recovery required meetings and IOP......for me to get the 'tools' I needed to be able to do things differently and to move away from addictive behaviors and thinking ( Buddhist principles are helpful for this too)..........one of my favorite quotes " treat others with respect...not as a reflection of their character.....but as a reflection of yours".......the bottom line for a lot of recovery programs ..........we have to become better people to recover-some folks use God, some other philosophies, some use yoga, fitness, art, music, etc......... Much luck and success to you.
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recovery, occult, LGBT stuff, etc.
recovery occult LGBT stuff.......I'll post anything I find interesting
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