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The Pagan online recovery group eventually dissolved....and I considered attending AA meetings again....as I truly feel the need to stay connected to others in recovery. I just couldn't do it...as with Wicca, I had outgrown AA and it's philosophy......even though I value greatly the start in recovery it afforded me. I decided to try an online search for Satanic recovery groups. All I could find were discussion forums which showed posts written by Satanists arguing about the validity of addiction. Nothing but heated arguments and unsupported opinions.........useless. ( Satanists are not the only humans who don't understand what addiction is). I did find Pagan recovery groups on Facebook....and joined a couple of those. I found them helpful, but selfishness and ego were assigned the title of 'dark'. I grew tired of the predominant 'love and light' view and needed something they just couldn't offer. I had 'a moment of clarity' as Alcoholics who get sober call it.....I was truly inspired by Satan to form a Satanic recovery group of my own. (Take that statement however you wish..I consider myself Agnostic... and seeing Him as a deity, being, force, power, symbol, etc., all make sense to me). The group was formed on February 6th, 2017....began with one member, and now has well over 500 members. I couldn't find my connection to others in recovery who are like-minded.....so I had to make one. I am grateful for my sobriety....and, although I've tried, I can't do it alone.
Hi, my name is David and I'm an alcoholic. I made that statement almost 365 days a year for six years. I, initially, got sober through AA. I worked the 12 steps with an Atheist sponsor and sponsored new people as well. I was practicing Wicca at that time, belonged to a Wiccan 'church', and acted as High Priest on occasion.
Once I moved from Philadelphia to a small town and stopped going to meetings.....I relapsed. I believed it was because I stopped going to meetings.....which is and isn't true. What is true is that I dropped my only connection to recovering folks.......which I believe, even still, is crucial to maintaining my sobriety.
I found a Pagan online recovery group to join......and got sober again. During that period I was feeling that I had outgrown Wicca and started searching for something new. Eventually, I picked up a copy of The Satanic Bible by LaVey......which began my exploration of the Left Hand Path. I soon 'converted' to Satanism.....which I found invigorating and it strengthened my recovery even more.
In a lot of ways...recovery is recovery, but I do approach recovery (and many aspects of my life) differently, in some ways, since adopting a Left Hand Path perspective. The greatest examples that come to mind are ideas about selfishness and ego. Selfishness is viewed as detrimental to recovery according to the 12 step philosophy....I view it as necessary. If you don't take care your self and your true needs........you can't be of any use to anyone else. Ego is thought of as 'evil' and needs to be destroyed according to AA. I truly believe that having a strong healthy ego is not only wise, but also necessary for survival.
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